Nah, you're just like me.
A "run of the mill" alcoholic who couldn't stop drinking on his own.
All the "ands, ifs, butts" and exceptions are purely ego driven and I know this from my own expeirence as I've been there. I can see it in others and sometimes read it on here.
If what you have is more important that what AA offers, then no need to keep picking a fight with it, move on to another program and get well for good. AA will be there if you decide to return.
You're worth it my friend.
Kjell~