Originally Posted by
Barbiedoll11 
Whether it be sleeping with someone or just making an ass of myself. Blackout+hookup=disasterly guilt the next day, lowered self esteem, INSANITY! However, I have had a very fun side of me while drinking. And yes, I do drink to get drunk. Not to blackout, but since I cannot control whenever that is going to happen, abstinence seems the only real safe way to live.(
Hi Barbie-
Go back and re-read your quote above.
I used to hang out in bars and clubs all the time. I did shots, did coke, and mingled my arse off for years in Virginia.
Sure, some of it was fun, but as my alcoholism got worse, so did the pain, the shame, the regret, the remorse, the guilt, and then cam the consequences (and trust me, they will come).
In my experience, it's only going to get worse.
I also found out that once I quit drinking, my drinking friends didn't really have much to do with me b/c we weren't really that good of friends anyway.
...but I've met great people in AA. We go bowling, running, swimming, we go to sports bars and watch the games, eat out, and of course help each other with out alcoholism.
Sobriety rocks!
Kjell~