poetry - you have certainly come to a place of support and comfort - you are dealing with addiction from the opposite side from me - my son is the addict in my life - but the feelings of frustration, anger, hopelessness, being torn as to what is the best thing to do, these are all part of the package no matter the relationship - i am so sorry you have had to deal with this for so very long - i can't add anything more to the previous advice about your situation but i certainly want to add my prayers for you and for your dad - please, as several have already said, remember you cannot save your dad nor make his decisions for him - give him up to God and let his consequences deal with him