FIRST OF ALL NINA LET ME WELCOME YOU TO THIS SITE.IN HERE YOU WILL FIND PEOPLE WHO CAN HELP AND ARE WILLING TO HELP.I AM AFRAID I CANT OFFER YOU ANY ADVICE BUT I CAN MAKE A SUGGESTION AND IT IS THAT YOU SEEK OUT A FACE TO FACE ALANON MEETING NEAREST YOU.I GREW UP IN AN ALCOHOLIC FAMILY AND I KNOW THE ANGER OF WHICH YOU SPEAK I CARRIED THAT ANGER WITH ME FOR MANY YEARS UNTIL I FOUND RECOVERY.ANGER BRINGS WITH IT MUCH PAIN AND TWENTY YEARS OF PAIN IS ENOUGH.YOU DO NOT HAVE TO SUFFER.THE FIRST MEETING IS ALWAYS THE HARDEST ONE BUT ONCE YOU MAKE THAT STEP IT WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE.IN THE MEANTIME WE ARE HERE WITH YOU.PLEASE KEEP COMING BACK.peter.