so glad that you checked in. I was wondering how you were doing. It sounds like a pretty normal grief process going on. Of course, you are going to miss the good parts. And now you are away from the "bad parts" so they are not as prevalent in your mind.
Time will continue to help heal your wounds. No telling what he will chose to do but you will know for sure - by his actions. It's difficult to let go of dreams.
I just left my husband a week ago so I know about the early stages of what you are talking about. Luckily, we did not have kids together. It is really hard. Contact has made it worse for me so right now I am on no contact. It is better but then I have concerns about how he is doing. Guess that I am going through my own detox.
Grab a computer when you can and let us know how you are doing. Miss you!