Good evening everyone.
i have been away for a while b/c i don't have a computer at my new apartment and frankly don't have a lot of free time to check in as much as i would like. but i missed you guys. i missed you all a lot.
now it has been almost three months since my AH has seen the kids. it is really sad. he still has not made any attempts to contact my lawyer or to find one for himself to represent him. we are not legally separated, but have lived apart since march.
at first having my own place felt pretty good and it still does. sometimes, however, it is still hard to deal with the separation. i still get texts from him, although not as many as i used to. i mostly don't answer his calls which are now far and few in between. i do call him occasionally, maybe once every week or two.
i just feel sad right now. when we do talk, he makes everything sound so nice. he claims to be doing pretty good, looking for a job, working on the house, basically getting things done. no mentioning of the drug problem or if he is doing anything about it. he is trying to make plans with me and the kids, which i simply ignore b/c i don't think we are in that place yet (wonder if we ever will be again).
if i do ask him (not directly) if the issues that were the reason of us leaving are still there, the answer is either a weak no or he is not perfect and he is making progress (whatever that means).
so anyways, just wanted to give the little update or the lack of it and wanted to say hi again to everyone.
thank you guys for helping me get so far and for all the advice and support. love you all.
hugs and prayers.
