GFCO that is very honest. What, then, is the plan going to entail? How do you avoid becoming Connie? She is the anti hero. Who is your hero? Who do you want to be like?
The Avett Brothers sing "There was a dream, and one day I could see it, like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it." They also sing "decide what to be and go be it."
I do see the dream... it's the future Me I want to be... she smiles at me. She is safe. She's there. Oh the strength I get from daydreaming about the woman I know I can be. It is what keeps me going. It has taken many false starts. But I keep trying. This time feels good and I like it and do not want to stuff it up. This time, I am working it.
Decide what to be, and go be it.