@ Ranger - Exactly part of my problem too, worrying about image. I can't tell you how many times I've excused myself from getting help because it would interfere with my life and people might find out I was getting treatment for a problem. Several times I've relapsed when people have asked me to drink with them, and I couldn't muster the courage to tell them "I don't drink". Ego...my alcoholic brain's best friend. Thanks for the post.