I just wanted to chime in and say you are not alone. I still get waves of sadness sometimes if I spend to much time with past happy memories. I'm glad they are there. It was 16 years of my life and it would be terrible to not have any good memories, but I can't spend to much time on them. They were a long time ago. Keep moving forward. Slowly but surely the weight of the world is lifting and I am making more happy memories in this life. It takes time, more time then I was expecting, but that is OK. I'm learning that I can dust off the day and the weight of alcoholism will slowly lift. Actually it feels more like I'm squeezing out from underneath it but whatever, lol.
I'm freeing myself one happy newly made memory at a time. That is how I'm going to think about it from now on. I talked myself right into that. Thank you for the thread
