Welcome to SR, Roadie.
Don't think that you're the only one who's done stupid **** while drinking, I know I have, and unfortunately, I still carry around alot of self-shame for it. Funny thing is that others (those who don't regularly drink & do stupid ****) don't even remember it, but I do. I, too, have been embarrassed to return to work, to see friends, even to go back to bars (when I was drinking)...
The only encouragement that I can give is that today, I don't have to worry about causing any new havoc in my life and the lives of those around me. I'm still a long way away from cleaning up the wreckage that I've left behind, but as long as I don't add to it, it will get done with time.