Hi Roadie, Welcome.
I just heard my story on your first post.
The last time I was in that similar situation was 2007, but those "situations" kept happening for 35 years, whenever I drank alcohol.
I been sober now just over 3 years....due to the realization of the physical condition, the way alcohol, or the way my body reacts to alcohol should I say. We learn much from one alkie sharing to another on the journey of recovery from alcoholism.
It's far easier to conclude "defeat" over alcohol than try to beat the drinking game. I got that message from a sober person one week sober in 2007.
"The "new" game is now learning to live sober", they said.
Simple as it may sound, at first it's not that easy, but gets better, and it does.
It's Ok to be sober.