@anvilhead As far as I know, this is a completely new behavior. I used to KNOW she loved me . . . but that changed with the addiction. Saying that I knew she loved me may sound strange, but that was one of the solid cornerstones of my life.
The part that cut to my soul was that we had 3 hours together on her pass and she chose to spend part of that time trying to find contact information on another man. This was the first time we had spent together in two months that wasn't during visiting hours or taking her to the doctor. I thought it was the best time we had spent together since before her addicition . . . and then to find the internet search.
She knows my objection to the whole situation.