Originally Posted by wanttobehealthy

In the morning I'll be better suited to deal with harshness but right now I need truth but not in your face style...

I found a half empty bottle of vodka behind the couch (from when H was here with the girls alone on Sat for a bit is my guess).

And I stupidly called him about it.

Conversation went like this:

me: If you want to kill yourself, that's fine but don't do it when the girls are with you

him: I WAS going to get a sponsor tonight and was feeling good and now you're causing me to drink-- well done.

me: If I cause you to drink then I could cause you to stop drinking and clearly I couldn't do that.

him: I've been drinking you away for years, chug chug now I don't have to deal with that f'ing b*itch...

me: crying saying please stop

him: what? the truth hurts? maybe if you'd been compassionate this all would have turned out differently. (then in condescending tone) i know you believe you loved me and were a caring wife but the way you cared about me never was what I wanted. Maybe if you'd left me alone and let me live my life I would have wanted to stay and deal with you (I guess he thinks he left me?)

me: more crying.

him: (now he's calm and talking quietly and as meanly as possible). you know you really need help. you've caused a lot of damage in this family and i hope you get help before you destroy the girls. i'm going to have to share your behavior with the court when we deal with custody-- i don't want to, but you're very ill.

me: more crying.

it went on for a while longer-- me crying, him hitting below the belt as much as possible...

I know I know-- I am a FOOL for staying on the phone, for calling at all, etc.. I know.

Right now I just hurt. It doesn't matter that it's quacking. Hearing that **** from the father of my kids and from a man I CHOSE to marry just hurts a LOT!

Thanks for listening...