Thanks Art. I went to 20 meetings. I think I gave it a fair shake. And I do like hanging out with other sober people. I like cleaning up and making coffee and all that. In fact I like the the service aspect most. I also like a lot of the people that I met. I just think that I and only I am responsible for my behavior. If I drink it is because I chose to drink. It is on me. And it is on me to stop. And I did.
"Since you have stated that willpower alone is enough for you, I have to guess that you lean toward some kind of masochism. I can't say for certain but it seems that way if you decided to be a 'flaming drunk'. To each their own"
Statements like this is part of the reason I decided to stop going to AA. Keep it up. Maybe some newbe will read this and see what is in store for them if they go to AA and not toe the proper line.