I'm sorry you relapsed. It's a good reminder for me that it can happen. You say longest clean is three years, I have two years, and if you can relapse then so can I so I need to be careful. I didn't use crack that long but long enough to get myself addicted. And I really would not want a 20 year battle with crack cocaine. I still crave it at times, and I still want it but I must remember that it is not worth it, it has destroyed me in many ways and if I use it will make matters worse.