Exactly, I am happy that you admit you "choose" to use, rather than maing excuses and saying you have no choice. Obviously your will power when things get tough just is not there. Financial stress and that stuff sucks, bottom line, but do you feel better now that you smoked some crack? I doubt it. Next time things get tough, you get tougher. Go better yourself somehow, work harder, take a class, get a part time job, etc.
Like LT said "don't smoke crack"