OMG thank you everyone! I just love you guys! To clarify...Im not a shut in and my life doesnt revolve around AA meetings. I have seen peope in that cycle. Im finding a balance. I cant balance with a beer in my hand or when Im drunk. I ask my HP every morning "please keep me sober today" All Im promised is today. Yesterday is gone and there may not be a tomorrow. Im working and working to stay sober, and patch the holes in my soul. (yet another slogan my therapist uses Geez)