confused and scared
This is my first time here. I have read a few things but just wwanted to ask some questions right now if that's OK. I am a 59 year old grandmother of 5.
Have had a rouhg life and started abusing OC stuff for years. Anything I could. Midol, Pamprin. Sinutab Extra Strength of course. I also went to numerous Dr.s for help.I never felt "calm" in my life~ and my life was a living hell so I wanted to feel better.My memory is really bad. I know I was given Paxil, Klonopin,Prozac, Serzone rings a bell ?? BusPar and probably many more over the years.
Now I have been on Xanax for about 3 years. First 1 mg a day. Half in the morn and then at night-because of sleep problems. Well now Dr. switched me to Xanax XR. I thought I had finally found it. I thought I felt more evened out and didn't have that crappy feeling mid day. Well, two months ago, my 33 year old daughter had to have open heart surgery. Needless to say, I was in desparation and fear like I never experienced. (she is fine thank god now). I asked Dr. for a little more for at tnight- so he told me to take another 1mg XR tab at night to get me through.
I have thrree wonderful daughters who arre worried about me. They want me to get off the Xanax~and now at this stage in life I do too. I am scared. I am so afraid to not have it. Even though it really doesn't do anything much.
I was diagnosed with PTSD, have anxiety and do also get bouts of depression. I don't know if it is the drug or me. I am so confused. I do get palpitations during stress- even on it- but I also read it causes it.
What do I do? Sorry this was long, just wanted to give a little background.
Do I trust my PC Doc. to get me off.( I tried once- it was not good- I got back on) or should I go to a specialist who helps people get off this drug? Any help will be so appreciated.
I have so much to live for now. I have a second chance at my life and I want to see what it would be like top just be me without a drug.
Blessings,
bobbie