One of the fears that I have is making the wrong choice and regretting it later. I have regretted a number of my life choices and recognize my fear of once again - making a choice and then regretting it.
I lived in that forever. Could I ever face someone else sitting in "MY" seat. Could anyone ever know my xah or his family like "I" do? I STILL struggle with that. What if i left before the rainbow, what if i bailed out too soon. Light, looking back, I waited toooo long. I can see the same in you. Look @ abs thread earlier about taking the addiction out of it. His behavior is NOT acceptable. You/we deserve more. You know that, you've just gotta believe it and take the steps.