Wow is all I got to say..I thought I was bad asking my bartender friend to send me home with one of those measured pourers they use to cap the drinks so they don't overpour. But this is brutal obsession with alcohol. Down to teaspoons...that seems like it would keep you in constant withdrawal.
I was an ALL or All drinker. It was just so much easier to cut it out of my life..it wasn't even counting my losses..It was a HUGE gain to cut it out completely. I do hope you find some peace in whatever you decide to do..you won't find many if ANY moderators here...I wish you well.