it's been a while...
hello again. So--- my college graduation ceremony is in a little bit more than a week and until this point I have been dead set on not inviting my A dad to the ceremony. I've been trying to detach as much as possible from him.
In my rational mind, I don't want him there. His presence gets me annoyed and anxious. I don't want my graduation day to be the day that my "step-mom" meets my mom. too much stress! But on the other hand, I am starting to feel guilty for not inviting him. he is my dad and I feel that I don't have a "good enough" reason to not invite him.
In the end, it comes down to me. It's my day. I should celebrate it with the people I want to celebrate it with. i just can't decide if I want him there. Thoughts?