Just reading all that makes my head spin. When you say "struggle", you weren't kidding. Wouldn't it just be easier to take all the time and energy you waste to maintain this lifestyle in accordance to the dictates of your alcohol intake and just live life instead without it? I find it so much simpler just to live without it. But that's just me.
Also, and I don't mean to scare you, but my friend at age 30 is dying from complications of alcohol. He quit drinking two years ago. It can happen to anyone of any age.
Best of luck with this. Alcoholism is an awful disease.
Much love.