You know what, Sykoeve in Ar -- alcohol has a way of misdirecting and mis-firing our brains. For me, ESPECIALLY VODKA!!! (YIKES!!), alcohol has made me do things I never would if I were sober... (I plan to list some of those things soon --to get them off my chest!). I'm new here too. And what I love is taking the wisdom from these threads instead of a drink from the cabinet. Those of us who find ourselves here have a shared mind and spirit across the miles. What a gift that we find one another. A perfect place to visit. Hugs to ya!