Hi and welcome and dare I say go try a NA mtg there is nothing to lose.
I have found many people who are going through similiar problems.
There is also a really cool social aspect and summer is almost here and they have campouts, and BBQ's, softball
I went to NA for several years and now I go to AA just because I needed something different.
Nothing what-so-ever to do w/NA it is a wonderful program
Try to remember we don't have to do this alone unless we choose to.
Everyone who has ever gone to their 1st meeting is scared and feels out of sorts but you get past it.
Go and come back and let us know what you thought.