I too miss the ritual of drinking wine in my favourite glass to unwind or before I went out...but alcohol was and is no good for me...I have accepted that. I think the drinking started because I thought it was a cool thing to do...all the adults around me drank...made me feel grown up....then it became a crutch...for everything..good or bad or anything in between, I loved the buzz that getting out of my skin thing...it was like there was another me that took over.....(at times I sure think there was) so I definetely think I was predisposed to be a drinker...an alcoholic probably that to...no amount is safe for me, I'm better having none than even attempting to have one! Life may not be as "exciting" I use that term lightly..but I'm much more stable and have my feet on the ground, and it feels good for the first time in my life..