morningstar,
Thank you for posting. I spend a lot of time online too and I don't have enough real people in my life either. Going to a meeting would really be good for you. You would really benefit from the support. Being here is great too. I've changed so much since I found these boards in March. It's made a huge difference for me. When I get overwhelmed emotionally I go see a counselor. I just went not too long ago because I was trying to deal with too much on my own. I only went for a couple of months.
Seeking help is a way to raise our coping skills so that we can handle the pain until we work through it. I've worked through a tremendous amount of pain in my life. Hang in there and know there is another way. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
I'm so glad you're feeling better today. I'm so glad you searched for help when you needed it.
Hugs and we're here for you.
MG