everyone...I too just did a search on suicide
and found that important messages were a computer click a way, and a phone line was always available too...
I'm being proactive here...I'm not currently feeling those feelings...but they scared me, really scared me, and it did feel like one of the sites said...a pain that was physical, not induced purely by my thoughts.
I'm still sort of unnerved by it--not definitely unnerved. I cannot go on "as usual", because last night was too dangerous. It's too dangerous to feel that way.
Maybe I won't cancel my internet service -- I was going to because I was spending too much time with people on line...I thought that was part of my problem. I needed more flesh and blood people in my lives.
I've vowed to start going to recovery meetings. I haven't been, because exercise is important but I have to do both.
They are both necessary for my health.
Thanks everyone.
For being here.