Trying so hard...
I have been trying so hard to keep busy so I don't think of or want to contact RAH. I have been in and out of tears all day and I'm trying to keep out of the house so I don't think of him and our daughter won't ask for him but it really is so painful. I hate that this is so easy for him to walk away and he is enjoying his freedom and the rest of his family suffers and he pays no consequence. I have never felt so conflicted and loved someone and hated them all in the same moment. If I did not have this site as an outlet for my feelings, I really do not know where I would be...Off now to my friends for dinner with kiddies in tow trying to make the most of this sadness and anger I feel.