Lipitor - that's an unfair challenge for you to have when you're trying to get well, but you need to handle it without falling back on your old anesthesia. As we've learned, getting numb only masks our feelings - they'd still be there to torment you another day when you sober up.
Good job on not caving. You'll feel better evey day until this mess is just a distant memory. We're on your side, hoping for the best for you.