Hugs, WTBH. As I decided to file for divorce, I came across an old journal of mine. I'd stopped writing in it because I suspected XAH of reading it (turned out to be an accurate assumption). But I found it last year and sat down to read it one day and was ASTOUNDED by what I had written in there. Details of XAH's drinking and abuse from before we were married, but were living together, that I had completely forgotten. Like being home alone on Christmas Eve because he was out drinking, making excuses to my Mom and her boyfriend for XAH no-showing for dinner....
I don't think I've cried harder in my life than that day when I realized that it had been going on for so much longer than I realized. That had I simply seen the red flags back then....
Good for you for tossing the letters! I sorry that reading the one letter you did read caused so much pain, but IMHO, it also let you see how strong you are for having made it through so much more than you knew.
