I'm with Dee here. Pot is addictive. It really messed with my brain. I quit about 6 years ago - and then went into heavy drinking, which I managed to quit 6 months ago.
you say:
I'm kind of relapsing now back into alcohol and opiates. I think I can function better on those, but those allow me to feel my depression worse I think..
relapse = functioning better = feeling depressive? I think the functioning better could be an illusion. Remove it from the equation and it makes a bit more sense.
Stick around, I quit weed without a program (hence my increased alcohol consumption) But I am grateful to have found AA wich is helping me with both issues now.
vee