(((Beachybabe))) - sorry you're going through this.
I've been on both sides of the "addiction fence"...loved an addict, AM an addict (recovering). Most of us, when using, won't admit we're doing it even if we're caught red-handed.
Look at his actions...actions always speak louder than words. Is his behavior acceptable to you? Are you going to believe whatever he tells you? Yes, you love him, but do you trust him? What can you do that is best for YOU and your girls?
It's hard, I know. I've had THREE XABF's, became an addict, and finally got to the point that I believed I deserved more out of life than to get the "crumbs" of someone's attention, as I always had. I was always second to something else.
Keep reading and posting...this forum has helped me get to where I am, and I was really, really a mess to start with, and I'm just one of many.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy