Thank you, John, for being brutally honest. I need it. Especially since I can't yet admit to my friends and family that I am an alcoholic. I know I am. I've spent 24 hours here and read a bunch of posts and posted myself and after the replies I've gotten from people telling what they went through I know I am. I just can't admit it. I mean, I can admit it to you guys and I think that's because of the anonymity. I just can't admit it in my day-to-day life. I want people to tell me what you're telling me because I think it'll help me make that step to telling others that I have a drinking problem and doing something about it.
You're probably right. It didn't occur to me but I see what you're saying. What I wrote does sound like I'm trying, yet again, to rationalize my drinking. I've been amazed at how much rationalizing I've been doing on my posts but you guys have been backing me up and pointing it out and I see it after I read your replies. And I thank you for it.