I didn't know this was a trigger til tonight. Ran to Rite Aid while neighbor watched the girls to get D3 Pedialyte etc... And I nearly ran into a display of Budweiser cases. I suspect a display much like it if not that exact one has always been there and I've never noticed it (don't really go to Rite Aid that much either so maybe that's it).
In any event, I felt my chest tighten and felt the panicky feeling I have felt when I see empties or find hidden cans. Then in line I waited behind a guy holding 2 cases and all I could think was, I wonder if he's an alcoholic, I wonder if he's going to hide that beer from anyone, I wonder if he's going to drink them all tonight (at his peak AH was drinking at least a case of beer a night- 18- that's a case right?).
That is a trigger for me and if I don't see another Budweiser can in this lifetime that will be too soon...