Dee, thank you so much fir your response and your more than true words. Yes. I start celebrate recovery Monday . I will have groups 5-6 days a week plus a councelor to get at the reasons that I let my panic get out of control , what caused it, and why I thought I could treat it with alcohol. Again thank you, I was very angry and depressed yesterday but I am getting more of a handle on it the farther I get from alcohol and the closer I get to putting my plan for recovery ib play. Btw....day 7!!!!!!!!!!!