Thanks to all for your support.
I am feeling much better right now, just cleaned up my house a bit. Sometimes the pure pleasure of being sober just hits me and it feels so good, and the thought of going back to pouring alcohol down my throat seems so ridiculous. But my mind can change real fast, and I know that tomorrow there will be more cravings and I'll just have to deal with that then. Tonight though, happy to be sober
Dee, I've been going to AA meetings since September, and I have a sponsor who is great and very supportive. I also have made a few other friends in the Fellowship who I trust and call. I definitely have issues trusting people though, so it is not very easy for me to open up to people, especially because I still feel a degree of shame at having a drinking problem, but I am starting to get over that, and just realize that I have a disease and I need to manage it.