Originally Posted by keithj

That's an idea I had to put aside when I got sober. I thought I could not drink if I just willed myself strongly enough not to. I thought I had 100% control over myself.

But the facts said differently. The facts said I kept picking up a drink. The facts said that after a short time sober, I'd get restless, anxious, bored, agitated, or whatever, and I'd pick up a drink.

How delusional is that? There I was walking around convinced that I could control whether or not I drink, but demonstrating no control whatsoever. In fact, I was proving on a near continual basis that I had 0% control over it.

When I saw the truth of that delusion, I was able to accept help and take the necessary actions to recover.