The turning point for me, between continued repeated relapse, and lasting sobriety was the moment of clarity when I could see the lie for what it was.
I had that moment when I knew that this time would not be different. The delusion was shattered that somehow, someway, this time would be different. Instead, I had full knowledge that in spite of my efforts, in spite of the consequences, in spite of all my sincere desire, this time would end up just like the other times with me drunk and hopeless.
When I knew that deep in my heart, I was in a position to accept help and take the actions that had led to lasting sobriety for others.