39 is awesome and hang in there. You have accomplished a lot already! I can't wait to say 39, proud of you and keep it up. You are normal in your own way. All of us are normal in our own way. Those people around you last night some may not have a problem like we do but may have some other problem. No one is perfect, know that when in a crowd and wondering why you can't be like them. I'm 9 days and had so many thoughts already of what ifs?, why nots?, how come? I just have to accept it, smile and know that I'm doing the right thing. Obviously harder said than done but wanted to comment. Blessings