Lipitor, Thanks for the post ! I came to the conclusion that my compulsion to drink and my depression were both "phantom emotions" like the amputee has phantom pain, they still have sensation from the limb that is no longer there. I have these emotions and feelings from a part of me that is no longer there. Just like the amputee, all I can do is ride it out. Don't know if this makes any sense or not but it helped me.
All the best, Ron