Thank you everyone for the kind words and warm welcome.
I did the same LaFemme, just drank and drank until it felt like nothing seemed to matter anymore. Now I'm having to feel the emotions and painful memories that I tried so hard to block. I would definately love to feel the feeling of joy again... everyday I wake up I am proud of myself for not drinking.
Originally Posted by
LaFemme 
Welcome to SR Cassandra. I am so terribly sorry snout your daughters. They say that is the worst thing that a parent can go through.
Grief was the trigger that spiraled my drinking out of control. I thought I would drink until the pain went away...only it morphed into something else and took on a life of its own with the booze.
You can be happy again...for your sake and that of your daughter.
Xoxoxo,
Tina