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My heart goes out to you. Early recovery for both AA and us is really hard. We feel so vulnerable and alone. The best thing I ever did was to get involved with an Al-Anon group. It gave me some of the love I was craving. It took my mind off what my H was doing. It gave me something to start healing. It gave me tools to mend my shattered self esteem and self worth. My H has been sober for a while, and he is still very involved with his AA. I am able to be happy for him without being glued to him.
I am glad that you joined us. There is a lot of support and love here. To find an Al-Anon meeting in your area,
http://www.al-anon-alateen.org/ and click "find a meeting". Hope you stick around. Hugs, Magic