Zube. I like your posts. A lot.
One thing I noticed: It's very easy for me to sit here and post and not drink. Much harder when at home. I think what I will do tonight is go home, straight to my office, and post. I noticed there is a mtg. tonight so I'll attempt to pop in to that.
AA is intimidating. You feel like everyone's looking at you, wondering what your deal is. No freaking way am I going to speak!!
I figured out the sugar/alcohol connection last go around. Everyone told me, just think of the weight you'll lose since you cut the calories of booze! Instead, I gained weight. Must have been all of those ice cream sundaes!
The higher power part of AA is a HUGE struggle for me, and I know it is for a lot of people. I think if I could just get over that I'd be on my way. Maybe.
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Zube 
Lost 3000:
The BAD news is, you don't suck, you're an alcoholic.
The GOOD news is, you don't suck, you're an alcoholic.
And there are a LOT of us out there, just like you. Don't beat yourself up. It took me 2 weeks of posting on SR before I got up enough nerve to go to an AA mtg. Never touched a drink since.
Some practical advice...go buy a big bag of chocolate, reeses pb cups, m&m's, whatever. When you start craving a drink your body is actually physically craving the sugar in alcohol, and sweets reduce the craving. AA and practicing the 12 steps will reduce the cravings even further to the point where they'll barely cross your mind over time. I still eat a lot of chocolate.
Zube