After reading your post, this line jumped out at me.
"I want to be sober."
That's all it takes is that desire to want to be sober.
It's a good first step we all begin with when we start
our recovery journey. Even for me 20 yrs ago when
my family stepped in with an intervention, doing for
me by getting me help to get sober that I couldnt do
for myself.
While in my 28 day rehab they handed me a blue book
called Alcoholics Anonymous and a Twelve and Twelve
Step Book and a small black 24 Hours a Day book. These
3 books would be the tools I would learn from and that
was my guideline to learning to stay sober a day at a time.
I have and still incorperate those tools and knowldege some
20 yrs later in my everyday life, passing on that knowledge
of what it was like before during and after alcohol to those
who still suffer with addiction.
Today I live a happy joyous and free life without alcohol
enjoying the rewards and promises stated in that blue book
of Alcoholics Anonymous. I ride passanger with my awesome
husband on our Road King whom we share recovery together
riding with the wind in our faces
and the sun
on our shoulders.