Well, first of all, you don't suck. It's hard at first to fight those urges day after day. Good for you for going to a meeting - it really does get easier after a while, so hang in there.....:ghug3
Something I did in the first couple weeks was to treat myself to a great meal each evening (carry-out from my favorite restaurants). It gave me something to look forward to each day instead of drinking. I also got myself some great things to drink like those expensive, healthy smoothies. I often drink a little bit throughout the day so I don't get too ravenous. If you don't have a refrigerator at work, maybe you could keep some drinks/snacks in a cooler..... (a good B vitamin also helps).
Remember that the alcoholic voice still wants to be in control, but if we don't feed it, it get weaker and weaker. Hope you have a better day today!