Wow, I can really say that all your replies are helping me really realize the reality of the situation and you all are right. I do love this man, but I love my kids more...and they come first. I wish it didnt have to be like this but it seems as im living in a hopefull state of 'what he COULD be" and well i guess im starting to realize how ot really is. Well its gonna be a heartbreak summer for me....
I just dont get tho after TWO rehabs and meetings and books and sponsers and everything..how could someone be in soooo much denial?? And the people that are giving him **** for it are the ppl that really care unconditionally about him...me and his mother! wth!
If I leave thats it for good. I told myself when I went back that if it doesnt work the 2nd time, then its never gonna work...i cant keep bouncing from him being in recovery to full blown drugs again and back and forth...its too much