thanks to all, I went outside this afternoon and worked in the yard. I could relax a little bit. While I was working I came to the conclusion I need to change things and the most important thing is cutting toxic people out of my life. I said before it is not a halt symptom, that was not true, I was lonely. I signed up for volunteering at a homeless shelter over the easter weekend, but a friend convinced me to go and drive with him to a celebration. I accepted and as always he cancelled last minute. Not only that but he blamed me on the phone for it.
I think my chances are:
- improve support network. I have 4 wonderful friends to hang out, however I neglected them latly, time to catch up. They are all non drinkers
- cutting toxic people out of my life,
stop dating or doing any kinds of relationships, they distract me immensly and I am done dealing with needy insecure men. I seem to attract them and until I change myself I will stop dating and looking for people.
- Setting boundaries for me. Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me
- I should learn from my mistakes.
and last and not least start loving and believing in myself!!!!!
If this does not help I will give AA meetings a try
How does this sound?
Any other thoughts?