usually when cravings hit me in the last 3-4 month I could easily ignore them, fight them etc. This one is different, its building and the voice is there telling me to drink. My mind knows it will be wrong to pick up again, I am an alcoholic. In the past I just ate ice cream, chocolate or pies and the cravings disappeared. Not this one. It is like it is coming down to my final fight, I either win this one or go down.... Thats how I feel and why I try reaching out.....