Yea, I think I understand where you are coming from. For me, I think it is lack of self esteem. I've had a bottle of vitamins next to my bed for a year or two, yet I almost never take them. Now understand that I take a fist full of other pills every day, so it's not like one more is going to be a big deal, but for some reason I wont' take them. (I'm going to take one today!!!!) It's like I dislike myself so much I feel like I don't deserve to be healthy or something. I have started making myself go to the gym and it does help me feel better. I think those of us with mental issues really have to consciously force ourselves to do things that we may not want to do, but we know will help us. At least that has been the case for me. Take care.