I have finally realized this! After a month and half of meetings and church groups. As I left my meeting last night and drove to the liquor store, trying to convince myself that i am "not" an alcoholic and at least im not doing dope.
Its gross, my attemps seem pointless and I feel like a failure. You would think after the horrible things I have done to my family while being intoxicated I would learn...But, I haven't. I just needed to vent I guess. Im not very social and have a hard time speaking in meetings. Thank you for reading.
